<p><b>''Spit-your-tea-out funny.'' -Fern Brady</b><br><b><br>''Raw, brutal and life-affirming'' -Sara Pascoe</b><br><b><br>''Addictive, exhilarating and raw'' -Daisy Buchanan, author of <i>Insatiable</i></b><br><br><b>''Graphic, explicit, visceral'' -<i>Irish Times</i><br><br>''Blistering'' ¿-<i>Sunday Business Post</i></b><br><br><b>''Transcendent'' -<i>Irish Independent</i></b><br><br>Marise was nine when she first realised there was trouble, 14 when her Dad tried to end it all, and 23 when he finally succeeded.<br><br>In a turmoil of conflicting emotions she runs, leaving behind Dublin and her Catholic girlhood and fleeing to New York, where she gets into a messy relationship with an older comedian who she idolises and who tells her she''s special - until she''s not. With a trail of sex, self-destruction and a near miss with Scientology in her back pocket, eventually she finds herself in a California psych ward, a young woman imploding. <br><br>As she retells her unravelling from ch