<p><b>A <i>Sunday Times</i> Bestseller March 2022 (Ireland)<br></b><br><i>Soon, the lockdown would start. People would die alone, without any proper ceremony. Charlotte''s death would be washed away, the first drop in a downpour. Nobody knew it then but hers would be the last good funeral of the year.</i><br><br>It was February 2020, when Ed O''Loughlin heard that Charlotte, a woman he''d known had died, young and before her time. He realised that he was being led to reappraise his life, his family and his career as a foreign correspondent and acclaimed novelist in a new, colder light.<br><br>He was suddenly faced with facts that he had been ignoring, that he was getting old, that he wasn''t what he used to be, that his imagination, always over-active, had at some point reversed its direction, switching production from dreams to regrets. He saw he was mourning his former self, not Charlotte.<br><br>The search for meaning becomes the driving theme of O''Loughlin''s year of confinement.