<p><b>SHORTLISTED FOR THE 2019 WAINWRIGHT BOOK PRIZE</b><br><b>LONGLISTED FOR THE 2019 POLARI FIRST BOOK AWARD</b><br><br><b>''This is a book to get lost in . . . A disturbing trauma narrative, it''s also a work of delightfully low, pants-dropping comedy, and a learned meditation'' <i>Guardian</i></b><br><br><b>''A brave and beautiful book, electrifying on sex and nature, religion and love. No one is writing quite like this'' Olivia Laing</b><br><br><b>''Turns the nature memoir genre upon its head . . . is a book full of poetry and pathos. More than anything it is a bold and beautiful study of how to be a true modern man'' Ben Myers, <i>Spectator</i></b><br><br>At a crossroads in his life, the demons Luke Turner has been battling since childhood are quick to return - depression and guilt surrounding his identity as a bisexual man, experiences of sexual abuse, and the religious upbringing that was the cause of so much confusion. It is among the trees of London''s Epping Forest where he