<b><i>NEW YORK TIMES</i> EDITORS’ CHOICE • In this vulnerable, insightful memoir, the <i>New York Times</i> columnist tells the story of his five-year struggle with a disease that officially doesn’t exist, exploring the limits of modern medicine, the stories that we unexpectedly fall into, and the secrets that only suffering reveals.</b><br><br><b>“A powerful memoir about our fragile hopes in the face of chronic illness.”—Kate Bowler, bestselling author of <i>Everything Happens for a Reason</i></b><br>  <br>In the summer of 2015, Ross Douthat was moving his family, with two young daughters and a pregnant wife, from Washington, D.C., to a sprawling farmhouse in a picturesque Connecticut town when he acquired a mysterious and devastating sickness. It left him sleepless, crippled, wracked with pain--a shell of himself. After months of seeing doctors and descending deeper into a physical inferno, he discovered that he had a disease which according to